2016, anna im ausland, anxiety, growing up, hamburg, hamburg 2016, ocd

2016 hopes, etc. etc.

Since the start of this fine year, I have been forcing myself to do that which must be done.
For example.
  • Should a letter need to be mailed, I get up and I do it the day of. No waiting till the mailbox is “on my way” to somewhere else, no putting it off for days at a time like I normally would do.
  • Should I need to call about my internet bill I do it as soon as possible. No putting it off for a few weeks until it’s absolute dire that I do so.
  • I made all important doctor’s appointments that I’ve been meaning to schedule for ages.
  • I put my clothes away as soon as they’re done drying instead of letting them set on my couch for ages.
  • Doing small tasks in the moment to save a lot of time in the end.

 

These may seem like really rudimentary practices which an adult should be employing on the reg., but for me it’s been a real feat.
This brings me to my next point.
What is normal or common for most doesn’t mean it’s common or normal for others.
I usually struggle calling about appointments, especially when it’s in German. Phone calls trigger my anxiety to the max.; mix in the fact the conversation is in German and bam! you’ve got the perfect storm of insecurity.
So those phone calls to challenge a bill or set up a doctor’s appoint are a big deal for me, and that’s ok.
Next on my list of things to conquer (or try to conquer) in 2016 includes not comparing myself to others. Because if there’s anything that will eat you alive, it’s comparison.
Instead I’ll keep my head down, focus on my own achievements, no matter the size.
And i’ll try to leave my Netflix nest more on the weekend.
But aside from that, I think 2016 is ours for the taking, folks.
Deal?
Deal.
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2016, january 2016, quote of the week

Quote of 2016.

You ruin your life by desensitizing yourself. We are all afraid to say too much, to feel too deeply, to let people know what they mean to us. Caring is not synonymous with crazy. Expressing to someone how special they are to you will make you vulnerable. There is no denying that. However, that is nothing to be ashamed of. There is something breathtakingly beautiful in the moments of smaller magic that occur when you strip down and are honest with those who are important to you. Let that girl know that she inspires you. Tell your mother you love her in front of your friends. Express, express, express. Open yourself up, do not harden yourself to the world, and be bold in who, and how you love. There is courage in that. — Bianca Sparacino How To Ruin Your Life (Without Even Noticing That You Are)

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