Slowly, even before you said “I don’t know what I want.”
Faster, when you said you did know, and it wasn’t with me.
A bit haphazardly when you returned with need for closure, yet with a need for continued friendship.
And now all at once.
Because actions speak louder than words — and words left unanswered say more than any words could attempt to convey.
You said you wanted a friendship. What you really wanted was a second chance on reserve.
And that’s the opposite of closure.
Munich U-Bahn (subway)…you certainly know how to stress a MidWest girl out. I know you’re not so fond of this girl always flubbing up which way to go and misunderstanding your beautiful map — but let’s be a little more gentle with each other, OK? I won’t throw fits anymore about you being late or too full or stinky if you promise to be a little more understanding that this Kansas girl is just now dabbling in the public transportation game… But, THANK YOU for your Royal Baby birth updates in the stations. I could kiss you right on the mouth for that goodness!
Air Conditioning… I‘ve always been thankful for your existence. I still remember attending elementary school late into May in classrooms with no air conditioning. (I cannot imagine how we coped, but we did. Enough to even cram 300+ smelly little kids into the gym/cafeteria for the annual talent show. That was dedication.) In Munich now it’s exceptionally warm, well, not Kansas hot, but warm nonetheless. And with no air conditioning, well, I am a grumpy mess. So I salute you, air conditioning, for your consistent comfort throughout my life.
Ikea… I love ya, you know that, but for some reason you induce panic attacks that rival those of which I get while navigating Forever 21. And, having to take my goods home via bus, with two subway transfers, well, that induces a completely different panic attack. But, as always, you’re totally worth it and my sad budget thanks you.
Tumblr… Thank you for providing me with hours upon hours of belly-aching laughter.
The Golden Girls… I’ve loved ya since I would lie at the foot of my parents bed every night and watch you after the news. I am re-watching every season and cannot get over how funny it is. I loved ya when I was 5 (though I didn’t get any of the jokes), and I’ll love ya until I’m 105.
First dates… you are a tricky thing. So, naturally, when I go on one with someone who only understands German, well you’re nearly impossible. But thank goodness for the quirky chapters in my German book that covered such topics. I’m not complaining, I always like a challenge.
Last week’s date… you were charming and handsome and perfect on paper. But, as it sometimes goes, our chemistry was nearly nonexistent. Which stinks, of course, but I am not worried for either of us. Sometimes, it’s just not there. And maybe that initial lack of chemistry is something worth being grateful for. It saved us a lot of time and heartache, right? No hard feelings.
Lost iPhone… I miss you more than you will ever know, unless, of course, a miracle occurs. Which in my mind still isn’t out of the question. **Waves up at sky to St. Anthony**
Being able to post .gifs in emails… this phenomenon changed. my. life.
My new roommates… I couldn’t have asked for a kinder welcome, or greater new friends to have in this city. I’m so blessed I found you guys.
Mom and dad… I’ve said it once and I’ll say it a million times over: Thank you. Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.Thank you.
“It was as simple as that – they met. As simple as only beautiful things can be beautiful, as only life-changing things, turning-point things, can be simple.” — Cornell Woolrich