my host mom (aka soul sister) always commented about my ability to know things intuitively. i find i am better with it in regard to situations outside of ones directly connected to myself. for instance, i can tell if someone has questionable motives or is a untrustworthy when it comes to my friends’ relationships. furthermore, i get strong urges to do certain things, like start this blog for instance. or move to Germany for eight months. it’s as though i get these waves of “knowing.” knowing, not believing, that i have to do something and knowing it is meant to be. at other times, like my relationships with gentlemen for instance, i am not so great with listening to my intuition. while i’m quite good at being able to “feel out” a situation or person, i’m equally, if not better, at ignoring my intuition. it’s as though i want it to be something good, so badly, that i ignore the truth as long as i can.
talk about counterproductive talents. sheesh.
i promised myself, and my host mom, that i would listen to my instincts more, especially when it came to my love life. Because up till now, it’s been a vicious cycle of “i knew it this was coming” events. so today, after a few months of forgetting this promise, i am letting it go and actually accepting the signs and feelings that come my way.
i mean, have you ever tried to go against the universe’s plan? it’s impossible. (not to mention, so much better than anything you could have planned on your own. i guess that’s why they say patience is a virtue…)
no wonder i’ve been so stinkin’ tired.
plus, after a wee panic attack around three o’clock today i turned on the radio to this song blaring. and ya know what? i think things really are going to get easier.