au pairing, blessed, germany 2011, God, growing up, hope, may 2011, my future, spring 2011

alles ist jetzt in ordnung.

 
 [my good friend Kim and me saying goodbye last week before I left.]

I am sorry for being away so long.  This past week was crazy– and not in a good way…
It’s kind of a long story and I don’t really think the details are necassary– especially because I am totally writing a book or movie about it– you’ll definitely get to read/see it… 

In a nutshell, my host family was lovely. Correction: my host mom and the children were wonderful. I loved and love them still, dearly.  my host dad was awful. just awful. he was not nice to the mom, which I immediately did not feel okay with, and then he decided to start doing so to me. I, refuse to be treated in such ways. 

I decided to leave immediately, after the dad and the mom told us (me and their children) they were seperating. this was on the third day of my stay. 

the dad was furious when he found out I was leaving to my friends (aka, lifesavers) in Kiel. He yelled for a long time. it was terrifying, but now I am safe and happy.

I am so grateful for my friends and family. Without them, I would maybe be homeless in Braunschweig. 

From one of the worst days of my life, to having an amazing day the next: 
life can be crazy. 
But God is always loving and looking after us.

I must also say, that when I was stuck in the first family’s house, and I was terrified and alone, I felt like I should call the number of a lady I became in contact with that day on the au pair site.  When I called she could tell I was terrifyed and she talked me through everything. She was a stranger, but really, I think a very very wonderful person God brought into my life at that exact moment for a very important reason.  I am going to stay with her family and potentially be their au pair, but until then, she has taken me under her wing and helped me through one of the scariest times of my life. She even called my parents in the USA after I called her from the train station and needed to tell them something I wasn’t able to do.  She not only helped me, she talked my mom through it as well. 
She is such a blessing.

So after a week I have found a potential new family and they live very near my friends.  It may be exactly what I was meant to end up doing. I know that everything happens for a reason, and with my last host family, I hope my purpose was to help the mom know that she, nor anyone, should ever be treated so badly.  
I know I am where I am meant to be at this very moment, and always.
But whew, I am glad I have finally stopped shaking. 

I’ll try and update more, until then, 
infinite love,
Anna
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15 thoughts on “alles ist jetzt in ordnung.

  1. so glad you are safe and with another family! i'm so sad you had to go through something like that, but glad it has brought you another, better situation, love! xo

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  2. Oh man, Anna. That's way intense. I'm thankful to read that you're safely out and blessed with another sweet family so close to your friends! God is good! Hoping you were able to inspire the women in your first host family to stand up for themselves! Keep us updated!

    xo Shannon

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  3. oh my gosh, i can't imagine how awful that was to be thrown into the middle of such an abusive situation like that, in a foreign country no less! i'm so glad you had people you could turn to and found the support you were needing. wow! and i'm so SO happy you are now in a much better situation. keep us posted on everything. hugs from california!

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  4. how terrifying! I am happy you've found a new family and place to stay in. I am 100% certain you did the job you were meant to do at your first AU pair house. sometimes God sends angels to do a special job, others he sends special people like you, I hope that woman does not let that awful man back into her life again!

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  5. I'm so happy and relieved to know you're okay. And it's true: people are sent to be in your life at exactly the right moment for exactly the right reason.

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  6. Wow, I'm glad that you are back and OK! Sounds like things were quite intense and it sounds like it's best you are out of that situation. Hopefully the mother and those children get out of that situation too. What a blessing the woman is that you are staying with now and that she is taking such good care of you! 🙂 Hang in there ! Thoughts and prayers to you!

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  7. Oh Anna, I'm so sorry that happened to you! I too believe that everything happens for a reason and know that your adventure will turn out OK! I will be sure to keep up with your blog now that I have so much free time. I love you girly, and I am so excited for you now that your adventure is back on track. 🙂 Love, Kelsey.

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  8. What a scary thing. But you are so positive and thinking about the good that has come out of it! Way to go. You are a strong woman! I hope that from here on out you enjoy yourself!

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  9. I know you don't know me but I've been following your blog for months now and have gotten all of my friends addicted to it as well. I'm very sorry to hear about your rough first few days over there but am also glad to hear things worked out for the best. I am a fellow KU fan (although from the KC, MO) side! Take care and hang in there!

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  10. If something like that ever happens again (I hope not!) my door is alway open for you! I live in the South of Germany (next to the border to Switzerland and France and the weather is much bettern than in Braunschweig).
    Just send me and email 🙂
    I'm glad you got out of that awful situation so quickly and I hope you will met a lot of nice people here in Germany and collect a lot of wonderful memories! If you're ever in the Area (Baden-Württemberg) we can maybe could meet for a cup of coffee or something!
    Lots of Love,
    Britti

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