holy moly. what a whirlwind of a year it has already been– a beautiful whirlwind; definitely.
i am overwhelmed with projects & homework galore, working daily, as well. i can hardly believe it’s my fourth year of university. woah. isn’t it silly that after switching majors approximately 5 times, i am still unsure of what to do with my life?
frightening? yes. secretly exciting? absolutely.
i leave for germany may 17th. i know the time between then & now is going to fly. that’s how it works, after all. but i am thrilled! i am au pairing for a wonderful family that lives outside of berlin. i am going to teach their little babes english. dream.come.true. i am also applying to attend courses while i am there at the university. i’ve had a cutout that says “in Deutschland studieren” that i cut out of a study abroad brochure & pinned to my bulletin board a few years ago.
if you would have asked me a year ago if i still was going to study in germany i would have most likely said no.
but that’s the beautiful part about life & growing up & learning more about yourself everyday.
it’s amazing how much your dreams shift & change in the matter of a mere year. but it’s lovely how my path has directed me back to pursuing my longtime dreams.
even if you try & tell your heart to hush, it will prevail in the end. every time. i’m sure of it.
here i am, preparing to live in germany in less than two months & i am more content than i have been in far too long.
& holy moly, it’s a wonderful feeling.