sometimes i wonder how one day can be absolutely happy for no particular reason.
i wonder why some days our hearts are far more tender than normal. i wonder how people can say such disheartening things. i wonder if maybe i have done something to make someone else sad. i wonder what people are thinking about in their hearts as they go about their daily lives.
perhaps the girl reading flashcards on the bus is suffering from a newly broken heart- the boy across the aisle in class, who stares ahead so very intently, maybe his mind is running non-stop with about fears of losing his ill grandfather– & maybe the shy girl in the front row, who takes diligent notes, is really about to explode with excitement over a wonderful date from the night before…
people hide so much from the world, i think we all do.
i wonder how sometimes i can be laughing about something so very silly & within the next minute be brought to tears from something which hurts my heart so. & then there are days in which nothing seems to be going right & you wonder if you were naive for having woken up with a feeling of hope for the day. the day which later would slowly prove to be a day of disappointments.
today i became very discouraged. i wondered how much my life would be impacted by a low grade on a single test, or the fact that i forgot one little assignment.
then i realized:
it can matter for the moment, but i won’t let it sour my overall feelings.
i will be sad. i will feel disappointed…but at the end of the day i must dust myself off, get up off the ground, and let the world know that i will sometimes fail.
but my failures will only make me wiser, make me stronger, make me me.